The Magic Pill Myth and Importance of Holistic Living

magic pill myth and importance of holistic living

Have you ever heard of the magic pill? It is the pill your primary care physician prescribes to heal all ailments super fast. However, just like the cure-all tonics of old, the magic pill doesn’t solve the problem, especially an incurable one like Crohn’s.

Hear me out, I don’t want to blame the field of medicine or doctors for this. Sadly, it is our culture that begs for the painless, “easy” route. However, with Crohn’s disease, there is no magic pill and so far I have found the most success in holistic living. Let’s begin with discussing the holistic living.

What is Holistic Living?

When I first heard the phrase, “holistic living”, I had an image of a hippie/yogi, who only relies on the “vibes of nature” to maintain a healthy life. However, holistic living really is a simple term: treatment of the whole person, taking into account mental and social factors, rather than just the symptoms of a disease.

For example, do you have an upset stomach? Instead of just downing the pepto, holistic living considers additional factors to solve the problem long term. What did you eat that day? Are you deficient in any vitamins or minerals? Was your day more stressful than usual? Or consider anxiety. Sure, antidepressants come in handy for chemical imbalances in the brain. But holistic living also considers the following: are your living conditions triggering your symptoms? Besides medication, anxiety can also be combated with exercise, herbal supplements, counseling and sleep patterns. Boom! Holistic living!

Lack of holistic treatment is not entirely the doctors fault, but more so our culture – who is screaming for a magic pill. Our culture is lazy. I am lazy. We crave a quick fix. There are pills that quickly aid a burning gut: Anything to ease the pain and allow us to continue our binge of the Mandalorian. 

After months of my doctors just pushing pill bottles in my face, I began to wonder…what does a healthy gut look like? Feel like? And how do I nurture a healthy digestive system? 

How To Live Holistically

Surely what we put in our bodies greatly impacts our health. Every time I went to the doctor, they would gently nudge a healthy diet with the statement, “You should eat greens and healthy foods.” This is what I grew up listening to. Other than celiac, there was never a curiosity of food sensitivities. Once again, I believe this is due to the laziness in our culture. Everybody wants to eat what they want to eat and they don’t want to hear a doctor say otherwise.

It wasn’t until I met Dr. Holly in July 2019 where I began to open my eyes. She was painted as more of a holistic doctor.  At that point in my dark season, I would have settled for Yzma from Emperor’s New Groove.

Being a llama sounded a lot less painful.

I was desperate for answers and relief. Dr. Holly immediately wanted to discuss my diet and get me on the supplements/vitamins my body desperately needed, while also encouraging long term medication. She asked questions about my entire digestive health history AND my stress levels. She did blood work and stool samples to gather an accurate picture of what my body was going through. Dr. Holly addressed the issue at its root and did not just prescribe temporary relief. Finally, someone who was speaking my language! She was proactive, genuine, and she listened to me intently. 

After meeting with her, I began to note a difference in care from my GI. From my GI, I sensed an ambivalence to the power of a healthy diet and proper vitamin supplementation. I noticed a general lack of concern for my overall health.

Finally – A “Diet” Trend I Agree With!

Your entire life is made up of experiences. In this experience, I learned to listen to my body. You are the only person that knows you best!

For example, I kept a food journal for several months and researched foods to both include and avoid. I evaluated the stressors in my life and created healthier boundaries. I have created daily habits that focus on combating my Crohn’s. Holistic living with Crohn’s is possible! Learn more about how to get started here.

NOTE: My intention with this post is not to undermine the power and effect of modern medicine. I believe science has come so far in the treatment of irritable bowel disease. I don’t know where I would be without my long term medication, Stelara. However, I do believe there should be an active participation from the patient, regardless of medication given. With Crohn’s you MUST gain a deeper understanding of your body and what you are putting in it! 

I will conclude with this: my diet and lifestyle choices are a work in progress and I plan to post more about it in the future. Please add any thoughts, ideas, or llama jokes in the comment section below.

The Silver Lining

the silver lining of irritable bowel disease

In a small part of my heart, I have joy for my irritable bowel disease.

Radical thinking, I know. Bear with me. 

It’s a small little compartment, but it’s there. Romans 8:28 says that God works all things together for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose. 

As a child of God, I get to live with the awesome reality that my life is perfectly written: the ultimate cinematic feature with its own twists and turns. In any great film, typically the protagonist encounters a trial of some sort. We, as the audience, embrace their conflict because it draws us into a relatable character and provides a compelling story in which we hope for the best in the end. 

The cool part about my story? It’s not really my story at all, but about just how freaking awesome God is at redeeming the scariest plot twists of our own cinematic features. Learn more about my Crohn’s story here.

What Started It All

Furthermore, self discipline has been a personal prayer of mine since I entered college. It was during my  senior year that I slowly faded back into some bad habits. World War Lazy had begun. The snooze button became the bane of my existence. Procrastination crept into all of my assignments like a weed. Every time I tried to overcome it or destroy it at the root, procrastination would pop up somewhere else. I. was. lazy. 

My prayer has remained unchanged since graduation, “Lord, help me to be more self-disciplined. I yearn to take better care of myself and to have a well balanced life.” 

As the responsibilities grew and life continued, my anthem prayer became louder. Adulthood was knocking at the door. Any sort of accountability I had at college was now gone. It was time to let adulthood in and face it head on.

And Then I Failed. Miserably.

I really did try! Just like all of my attempts to do a push up. I tried to push the earth away, but the earth refused to relinquish its grasp on my body.  I would just lay on the floor face down. A stubborn and proud mess. I genuinely thought I could take on the world and adult like a champ. After running into the wall countless times, bitterness towards God began to sink in. I shut Him out for a time. The fellowship with my Savior began to dwindle along with my self discipline. The illusion of control held firmly in my grasp. 

“Lord, help me to be more self disciplined.”

Little did I know, God would answer that prayer by way of a chronic and incurable illness. Irritable bowel disease at it’s finest. Move over, Job. 

Serious symptoms began to pop up all over my body. These symptoms instilled a lot of fear in me. This fear began to weaken my supposedly firm grasp on control. God was slowly breaking down the walls of my pride. I found myself sobbing on the bathroom floor during the darkest hour. All the control I had on my life slipping through my fingers.

Moving Forward

I began to question the alternative. “Do I continue on this fools errand for control?” or “Do I relinquish my life, truly, genuinely, into the hands of my Creator?” Jesus commands us to perform the latter in Matthew 16:24. It was at that moment that I sought to deny myself control over my life. This is the complete opposite of what our culture teaches us.

I started to seek him more earnestly and with desperation. Therefore, Crohn’s strengthened my relationship with God as I began to lean on Him when I had nothing left. Through the pain, He was showing His faithfulness, pursuit, unconditional love for me.

Not only that, Crohn’s forced me to change my lifestyle for the better. I now have to be aware of everything I eat. I keep a food journal handy and plan my meals. It forced me to give up foods and habits I wanted to remove from my life for awhile. It challenged me in ways I never would have encountered otherwise. I had to start taking supplements and vitamins. Food is now a fuel/medicine, not just means of satisfying a craving.

I now have a better understanding of my body that a lot of other 24 year olds don’t possess. God has granted me wisdom about how to best take care of my body. I now have a deeper appreciation for how God designed my body to take on my irritable bowel disease like a BOSS.

How often do we view our bodies as temples and to be aware of everything we put inside them? Valuing one’s body is clearly an important topic for me so you will definitely see more posts on the topic.

The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m a work in progress. I still have really tough days where peanut butter m&m’s and Velveeta cheese packets cloud my judgment. 

And there are still some days where the abdominal pain screams louder than the progress. But overall, I’ve come a long way in my self care journey and in my relationship with God. 

All thanks to Him, who can redeem even the poopiest of stories …pun intended.

Is there a part of your life that God has redeemed? Are there any aspects of your life you would consider blessings in disguise? What are your peanut butter m&ms? I would love to hear your stories in the comment section!

An Incurable Disease. “So Be It.” Now What?

I’ll never forget the feeling of waking up from my colonoscopy and receiving the news. I thought a camera up my butt sounded bad. Diagnosed with an incurable disease sounded even worse.

Even though it scared the living daylights out of me, receiving  the diagnosis gave me a wave of relief. Sure, I was just told that my digestive system joined the dark side, but I finally had answers to my chronic pain and hope towards healing. 

Getting diagnosed can be scary and a bit overwhelming. It is important to know what questions to ask your doctors and what the next steps are in the process. So where do we start?

Short term relief. Immediately my GI doctor prescribed a steroid called Prednisone. I was to take this medication in decreasing doses over an 8 week period. This “grenade” provided relief almost instantly. Steroids are commonly used to combat the inflammation caused by Crohn’s. However, they are discouraged as a long term medication due to various negative side effects.  Side effects can include insomnia, depression, weight gain and overall just feeling a bit weird. I am so thankful for what it has done for me, but I looked forward to moving on to something more substantial and effective long term.

Long term medication. What is the bridge between the prednisone and long term medication? Discuss this question with your GI doctor. I was diagnosed with moderate to severe Crohn’s and the medication Stelara was recommended. Now I have done my research and there are several medications out there to treat irritable bowel disease. Just turn on the TV and you are guaranteed at least one commercial promoting a Crohn’s medication. Stelara is one of the newer medications and has shown promising results. I’ve been told Crohn’s affects everyone differently – so the right medication may vary for you!

I must say, it was new to me how Stelara is administered. I had to receive an initial infusion (yes, it involved a scary needle and IV in my arm over a 3 hour period). This infusion is similar to that of a cancer patient receiving chemo. After the initial infusion, I will need to be given injections once every 8 weeks. I will never complain about horse pills again. I would rather take a pill every day than give myself an injection.

Diet. Diet. Diet. I can’t stress this enough as it’s really important, not only to people with IBDs, but the public in general!  Dieting is one of the hardest aspects of this disease for me. Kraft Mac and cheese and ramen noodles are my JAM! Crohn’s has altered the way foods affect me. Sadly, gluten can no longer be a part of my life as it triggers my symptoms.

Thank GOD I like gluten free pasta!

It’s vital to start tracking what you eat and discovering what foods to include or what foods to avoid. Starting a food diary can be helpful (yes, it feels like a pain at times – but so worth it!). I’ve learned so much about inflammatory diets and Crohn’s super foods from my own research. No matter what you read out there, keep in mind that everyone is different. This is where monitoring your symptoms up to 72 hours after eating is so important. Gluten doesn’t upset my stomach right away, but you can bet that I will be enjoying the next day at the porcelain theme park. What are your trigger foods?

Supplements! Damaged intestines prevent your body from properly absorbing vital vitamins and nutrients. Prior to my colonoscopy, I had blood work done. The lab results revealed my inflammation levels as well as deficiencies. I was lacking vitamin D and B12. I was also suffering from a bout of iron deficiency anemia. There are even supplements that strategically combat inflammation such as fish oil. Talk to your doctor to see what they recommend as well as the best place to purchase your supplements. I won’t get into the quality of a supplement, I will merely suggest that you extensively read the reviews of supplements before buying. 

To stress or not to stress? Evaluate stressors in your life. This was huge for me. Stress from my vocation greatly altered my well being. I wish I could begin to understand the complexities of the gut and its connection to the brain, but all I can tell you is that the connection is real. Now, you may not be able to quit your job and move to a rural area like I did (talk about a major life change!), but removing those stressors have been life saving. As I seek a new career path, I will be committing to the limits and boundaries of my body. If a career change isn’t in the cards for you, I strongly recommend evaluating your priorities and finding ways to cope with stress in a way that promotes healthy living. 

AVENGERS ASSEMBLE.  It is time to call in the squad.  Having a support team as you navigate your illness and seek remission is huge. Yes, Crohn’s symptoms can be really embarrassing at times, but I’ve been pleasantly surprised by the encouragement I have received from opening up about my condition. I have met a lot of people who don’t mind talking about my bowel movements! Facebook groups, local support groups, church, etc. Encouragement is key. Having a chronic illness comes with good days and bad days. Reach out to people on those good and bad days.

Probably the biggest hurdle for Jordan and I was trying to understand my chronic fatigue. I always felt like crap. Along with severe pain during my flare-ups (The pain literally feels like someone stabbing you in the gut), I also experience low energy and I never want to go out. In a flare-up, my biggest priority is staying near a toilet and napping to my heart’s content. Now imagine living with someone like that? Poor Jordan! However, having him empathize with me, and not get frustrated, was a salve to my wounded mental state. He’s also been helpful as I alter my diet. He willingly gave up his comfort foods and jumped on the same diet as me. Surrounded by accountability and encouragement got me through some dark days.  

Patience! When I was told it can take 12-24 MONTHS for the digestive tract to fully heal, I about flipped a table in frustration. Are you serious?!

I CAN’T WAIT THAT LONG!

Achieving remission is a work in progress. Be patient with your body. You will have really great days where you feel you can take on the world. Others…well, not so much.

In my case, I was undiagnosed with Crohn’s symptoms for over a year. In that time, my body ran a constant marathon it was not equipped for. It’s going to take more than a “30 day diet detox” for my body to recuperate from that year. I am slowly accepting this process because I am confident I am going to survive this. Give your medication time to work. Use this time to learn about your body and adopt a lifestyle that will help you maintain remission. And I promise, you will begin to see results! 

The Dark Side of My Digestive System

Flashback to October 2018: As a 23 year old, newly married, freshly out of college, and in my first big girl job as a wedding coordinator, I was stressed beyond belief. Jordan was gone a majority of the month for work and I was ass kissing MOBs 24/7. October in particular was the month from hell. Apparently, the month of October is a magical Disney time where not only do the leaves change colors but women change their last name. 

I thought I knew what stress was – then adulthood/marriage paired with an overwhelming vocation hit me like a ton of bricks. 

That’s when the symptoms started. I remember the specific moment when it hit. I had just arrived at the wedding venue. A stereotypical rustic barn with “All of Me” by John Legend blaring through the rudimentary sound system. A wave of fatigue and severe indigestion hit. A chronic burning in my stomach, cramping, and occasional diarrhea began to plague my life from that moment on. My first visit to the doctor went as you would imagine: 

“Nothing is wrong with you. Take this proton-pump inhibitor and have a nice day.” 

Now I can’t fully blame the first series of doctors. Crohn’s is an elusive beast and it does not run in my family so I can see why they wouldn’t cast their flashlights in that direction. But regardless, I was disappointed and full of unanswered questions. 

The end of 2018 marked the beginning of an uphill battle against a menacing Phantom. 

It’s now early 2019 and my primary care physician ultimately  referred me to a Gastroenterologist. This is a doctor you regularly meet when you are 50. I was 24. At this point, a lot of my symptoms were still upper: burning and pain above my belly button.

In April 2019 I had an endoscopy done (where they take a small camera down in my stomach and look around. Personally, I think it’s a cool procedure, my husband tends to gag upon thinking about it. Pun intended). At this point, I was hoping for an ulcer – ulcers were hereditary and it would at least be a face to the menace torturing my digestive system.  We even entertained celiac disease as a possibility.

Nothing showed up and the tests for celiac came back negative. All that was reported was gastritis and excess fluid in my stomach and my doctor insisted I stay on my proton pump inhibitor. I was gutted…both literally and figuratively. Seriously? In hindsight – I should have pressed the GI doctor. What was causing the inflammation in my stomach lining? Why was the fluid there? In hindsight, the excess fluid would point to my body compensating for an issue that didn’t exist. This could have been a clue to auto-immune. Hindsight. Life is made up of hindsight. There is no escaping it. 

Sadly it took several more months to get to that point in my health journey – where I had the courage to start asking the deeper questions – the courage to face darker realities.

A bit disgruntled with my current health care and lack of results, a close friend referred me to her doctor in July 2019. She described her as more holistic but extremely effective. At that point, I was desperate for ANYTHING. After meeting with Dr. Holly, I was instantly encouraged. She requested blood and stool tests immediately to see what was going on in my digestive glass menagerie. 

The test results were alarming. The inflammation levels in my blood should have given me a heart attack. I had an iron deficiency and was also lacking several vitamins and minerals. She was shocked I was still functioning. I had lost an incredible amount of weight and looked every bit the definition of gaunt. Oh! And my poop was nothing to write home about.  It was nine straight months of Niagra Falls out my butt. Sorry, not sorry. You clicked on this blog. 

I think the most damaging moment in this journey up to this point was the lack of concern and initiative from my GI doctors. This apathy dissuaded me from the conclusion that I was experiencing an irritable bowel disease like Crohn’s. Dr. Holly suggested a colonoscopy in order to diagnose Crohn’s or ulcerative colitis. 

She got me started on anti-inflammatory supplements like Fish Oil, Vitamin D and L-Glutamine to promote healing in my gut to see if that would fix my issues. This was also the first doctor who began to teach me the importance of diet and being aware of food sensitivities – something I am now really passionate about! A big reason why I am beginning this blog.

I must say, I did find the most relief from the supplements prescribed to me. As I began to follow an anti-inflammatory diet, I noticed energy and life returning. But even then, I knew my body was still at war. Looking back, I wish my doctors would have  pushed the colonoscopy from the very beginning. Looking back, I wish I had eaten more cake and macaroni and cheese before my body decided to join the dark side. 

In late Summer,  the symptoms still lingered. I also lost about 20 pounds since the beginning of the year. And at this point, my behind was at an all time flow. I will spare you the details – but chronic diarrhea makes your butt hole hate you. I felt like an 80 year old woman based on the pharmacy in our medicine cabinet. I still have the Monday through Sunday pill box that hypochondriacs carry around with them like a Kate Spade handbag. 

As September-October approached, I entered into another overwhelming work season and my stress levels sky-rocketed. As my stress increased, so did the pain and symptoms. The pain became unbearable. Looking back, I don’t know how I finished that season of work. There were moments while working events, I had to step away to compose myself because the pain was so severe. 

Oh, and I am so glad you brought up diarrhea! The diarrhea prevented me from doing ANYTHING. Trips to the bathroom were up to 10-15 times a day. My husband, family, and even Dr. Holly wanted me to quit my job. I am not one who quits easily. I knew I was leaving the job in November and moving out of state. If I could just get to mid-November, I could focus entirely on my body and health.

Now for the turning point of my journey, the clencher….clincher? 

My butt saved my life.

Bare with me! My bottom was in such extreme pain from the countless hours of diarrhea that I rushed an appointment with a rectal surgeon. It was the last appointment I was able to make before moving across the country.  It was this rectal surgeon that finally pushed for full Crohn’s investigation. She was alarmed by my symptoms and the current state of my behind. I finally received the urgency from a healthcare professional that I knew I needed deep down in my heart.  

She quickly scheduled a colonoscopy before my departure from the state. 

Now my colonoscopy story is an entirely different blog story, but I will just leave it as this: They stick a camera up your butt. To be continued.

I remember when I got the diagnosis. I was groggy from the procedure and I could feel the warmth of Jordan’s hand in mine. The doctor’s assistant walked in and dispensed with the pleasantries. “It is definitely Crohn’s.” A wave of sadness overcame me. I cried. The overwhelming sadness was quickly replaced with relief. Finally. An answer to my years worth of suffering. Finally, the face of the serial killer in the neighborhood of my digestive system.

If I have learned anything: when in doubt, get a colonoscopy! If I would have been tested sooner, it would have saved me from so much frustration and suffering.

Also, trust your gut. Despite the initial lack of concern from my physicians, I knew something wasn’t right. Press them. This is not a blog blaming physicians. Doctors work to save countless lives throughout their career. Days can get long. Sometimes they need gentle assertiveness from a patient that knows something isn’t right. 

In future blog posts, I will discuss in more detail the symptoms leading up to the diagnosis and the actual diagnosis itself: Crohn’s Disease. I would also love to share about how diseases affect your relationships and your caretakers. I will also be sharing more on how this disease has established a stronger connection with Jesus. Suffering, although horrible, can only produce good. The desire for this blog is to ultimately bring awareness to all facets surrounding an incurable disease. 

Thank you for reading. Please continue the conversation in the comment section. And don’t forget to share your story. 

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ,  through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. -Romans 5:1-5.